chocolates just make me more depressed... =(

i'm sad... losing my craziness.... i used to get high on sugar.. sugar was once my drug. but apparently like all drugs of abuse i've grown tolerant of it...
*rem fond times whereby i just take shots of sugar from those sugar sachets and went on a high where everything was brighter.. and blue was blue-er and life was happy.... and i start to laugh at ridicolous things..*
Sugar has no kick for me animore... think the onli kind that is left that can give me that sugar high is onli left the *SPARKLING* Ribena... with happy bubbly...
(shall use ONLY in dire emergency cases... of depression.. scared that i get tolerant of the onli sugary thing that makes me happy..)

Chocolate contain endorphin-like compounds that make people feel happy and like in love.... and has analgesic (stop pain) properties.. however discovered that i feel worse if i have chocolates.. here's the logic behind it....
Apparently i get VERY happy with chocolate.. while eating it.
but shortly after it's finished and all in my tummy, i stare at the empty packet and feel an immense sense of loss and depression: COZ THERE'S NO MORE LEFT~!!! =(
*determined to make my meji black chocolate last as long as possible instead of wasting it on a binge*

Was talking to alex and discovered an anomaly to the first Law of Aiwen-ism (: women are a higher lifeform)
Apparently guys can't get "high*" on sugar.. onli girls. they require some silly trigger that sets up a ridiculous thot before they go crazy... Since by my theory that women are a higher species.. it would seem contradictory that guys would require some level of cerebral thought before they go high, whereas women can go high simply by ingesting food...

EXPLAINATION: (veri proud that i resolved the anomally)
Guys have higher levels of metabolism, hence their sugar levels will never reach high enuff levels to get on a high.. whereas for girls the metabolism for sugar is slower, so we get a sharper peak for the sugar and reach the threshold level for us to reach a high more easily.... *haha* mystery solved and my 1st law is STILL INTACT!

Note: *high is characterised by hysterical laughter for no apparent reasonable reason...

I missed going on a high... sugar can't do it for me animore.. maybe i'm getting insulin resistant liao so sugar can't go into my cells. *hmm* well, thank god i'm not resistant to ice-cream yet!
or maybe my brain has officially gone screw-y and more male like so require some level of mental stimulation before i can go crazy... so all you people out there, WHAT are you doing??? I'm BORED. Entertain ME, *now if u can.. *=)

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